Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Update on next IVF...

For some reason, I haven't been in the mood to post about IVF stuff. Many have emailed and asked what's going on, so I thought I should probably update. We have received our packet from the clinic, that tells us how much this cycle is going to cost. I have talked to the mail order pharmacy and they have told me how much my meds are going to cost. We have received paperwork from the clinic to sign (again). I didn't realize that we have to sign all of that paperwork, before each cycle. It's like the paperwork you initial and sign before buying a home...there's A LOT. I haven't received my calendar to tell me when I should actually start my injections. I assume it's going to be soon, since they have called it in to the pharmacy. I'm feeling a tad bit overwhelmed. I'm excited that we're starting a fresh cycle, but dreading it as well. So far, our portion for this cycle is over $5600.00. Seriously? I had forgotten how much money goes into a fresh cycle. A frozen cycle is less of a hit on your pocketbook AND your hormones. It was easy-breezy. My doctor told me to stop taking my meds that help with the Lupron Depot side effects, so I've been fighting the urge to just stay in bed over the past week. Not a great way to go into this next cycle. I'm ready for that medication to be out of my system...it's not my favorite. I should be starting acupuncture, as soon as next week. The pharmacy went over all of my meds and I'm on different injections this time. I'm on a total of 4-5 injectables...at least that's what they told me. My tummy and backside are going to be black and blue, before this is all over.

I would like to say, that I believe this next round is going to give us our miracle baby. After going through two failed cycles, it may be naive of me, but I believe it with all of my heart. If in the end it's not...yes, my heart will be broken, but God will be there to pick up the pieces. Just thinking of that is an instant comfort to me.

As I was reminded, last night...when the time came for God to save the children of Israel, the Bible says, "He remembered them". When the time came for God to give Hannah the baby she had prayed for (for so very long), the Bible says, "He remembered her". We serve a God that doesn't forget! I have no doubt that when the time is right...God is going to remember Alex and Jill Averitt. He's going to remember the MANY prayers that have gone up by us and on our behalf and He's going to bless us with the most beautiful baby that we've ever laid eyes on. I get excited, just thinking about it! I also start crying, just thinking about it. I serve a God that loves me. He is faithful and true and He never forgets!

Please keep us in your prayers. The meds are very hard on me and in turn, I tend to be hard on my precious and very patient, husband. It's truly the only reason that I'm dreading the cycle.

Love to all,
Jill

37 comments:

Cassandra said...

I've found it helpful for us to keep reminding each other that different emotional and physical symptoms are "just the meds." It's easy to misattribute causes when you're in the midst of unpleasantness.

Best of luck with the cycle!

Kristen said...

Just want you to know that you are being prayed for here in my small town. I am lifting you up everyday! You are a precious Christian woman and I think you will be the best mother EVER! I know how those meds feel...not fun!
Please keep us updated! Praying!
Love you!

Jenna said...

Praying for you, friend!

Seraphim said...

Lots of love to you Jill and your DH. And the not wanting to talk about it? that's totally understandable. For some reason, I have absolute faith this cycle is going to work for you. I do.
xxxxx

Vashti said...

Im praying.
xxxxx

Kristina said...

I'll keep you guys in my prayers! We are going to the specialist for the 1st time next Wed...hopefully to get started on IVF. I am scared to death that it wont work, but also leaning on God, knowing that "He will remember." Thanks for putting it into words!!

Charnè said...

yes God definatly does remember us all! thinking of you and hoping this cycle brings miracle baby averitt!

xxx

Anita said...

That's exciting you are doing a new cycle!

I'm sorry you are having a hard time with the meds - they really knocked me around too this month. I hope that the rest of your injections go well!!

I will be praying for you and really hope that this cycle brings you your miracle baby!

Anita
hopefaithpatience.blogspot.com/

twondra said...

Definitely thinking and praying for you sweetie!

Jen and Jared said...

Thank you for the update.... we will be praying specifically for these things that are so hard on you. Also I'm glad you posted... I've missed you in blogland!

Jen

Anonymous said...

Pill,
You don't have to dread this process thinking of me. I have been blessed beyond measure just to have you for a wife. I have truly found favor with God. (Prov 18:22)

I am very proud of you. Watching you take the punches of all the meds, and how you just keep getting up for more inspires me. You often argue with me when I say it, but you really do have a strong heart. I can't wait to tell our children the stories of the courage and strength of their mother. How you fought to get pregnant, and endured great hardships to be able to carry and deliver them. They will be proud of you too!

Remember Buddy, WE are in this together. You are never alone, and I wouldn't want to share this experience with anyone but you. We may plant in tears, but we will harvest with shouts of joy. (Ps 126:5)
I love you with all my heart!
Alex

amy said...

Every morning I wake up praying for my sweet friends struggling with infertility- including you-it's the first thing on my mind. God has given me such a heart for people like me- who long(ed) for a child(ren) and had to wait. When I was going through it I truly knew NO ONE going through it. He taught me so much- reminding me to depend on him, but I think he was also preparing me to love on others in the same situation because now I know so many struggling. Anyway- you are precious. The Lord WILL bless you. I am lifting you up- asking for a MIRACLE, that God take away money worries, make med side effects disappear, and that He bring you and Alex even closer to him. Hugs to you!

I Believe in Miracles said...

Praying for you!

Heather said...

I am praying so hard for you...and will be praying specifically about the meds and injections. It is just so horrible what you have to go through! I only had to take oral fertility meds, and I still thought I might never get back to my "normal self". I had MANY days where I stayed in bed and didn't come out! I am BELIEVING GOD that this cycle will work!!!

Linda Lou Rogers Averitt said...

I am glad you blogged:) it always helps to talk:) or should I say Blog:)) I am praying for you and Alex and our precious babies:))) Also praying for money:)) I know it is hard haveing spent so much and now more. love you!!

Mel said...

I just love you and am praying SO HARD for this upcoming cycle. I know God is working on your family, I KNOW HE IS. I don't understand his timing or his reasoning but I know that "baby Averitt" is going to be in your life someday. The meds are hard and I was so horrible to my husband some days, too (still am, so sad), so I can relate to that worry you feel. I will pray God will bring peace to your home and heart during this cycle and that he will continue to give you that beautiful strength of yours to carry on.
*hugs*

Lacy said...

Jill, I am praying for y'all this cycle!!

Shannon said...

Jill, I will be praying so hard for you! I do not know how you feel because I have not done IVF (that is our next step) but I know a little of what you are going through. Keep us updated (if you want to) and I will be praying. HUGS!!!

Hilary said...

Jill I am praying that this is the cycle for you and your husband too..God bless you..you are an awesome woman!! :)

Eric and Emily said...

Thanks for the update, I didn't want to ask!
Such a good attitude you have, and I will pray this is the cycle you conceive your beautiful baby!!!

Rathi said...

Definitely praying for you guys!! THanks for putting that into words.. We will all have our miracle babies soon!!! Lots of hugs!

Glitter and Bliss said...

Bless your heart. I am tearing up just thinking about all you have been through. I will pray for you and your sweet hubby that third time is the charm. What wonderful parents you are both going to be.

Baby Sara's Mom said...

thanks for sharing! i'll be thinking of you as you go through this process. I know God has great blessings ahead of you guys. God bless, Nitzia

Anonymous said...

PRAYING!!!!love you both! ab

Faith said...

Oh Jill, my heart just hurts for you and all the ways that infertility affects us. I wish that I could take it all away for every single person who has had to endure it.

Alex's comment is so sweet. You do have a strong heart and I fully believe that the Lord will remember you and I am trusting that He is going to bless you with your faith baby(ies).

I totally understand the money concerns. If it makes you feel any better, at least it's not $15,000, which is what we would have to pay. Yowzers!!

I love you my friend and I am praying for you!

Alice said...

Oh my goodness, Alex's comment made me a blubbering mess. How sweet!!! Praying for you and Alex both. You inspire me!!

PJ said...

I think if we did fresh cycles one by one, and were not in the program we're in, it would be more like 10 grand for each round. So that's not too bad, comparatively. However, it IS a lot of money.

You'll definitely be in my thoughts and prayers. I'm betting that this one goes smoothly for you, and I say that because you have the experience now of having a fresh cycle.

I hope and pray that this is the miricle you've longed for!!!



You have me feeling really good about doing an FET!!!

Joannah said...

You moved me to tears, girl! And your husband's comment is just amazing.

I'm thankful that we'll sort of share this IVF experience together. I hope that the Lord remembers us both, but if not then he's got something else wonderful in mind for us.

As for the cost, that is a lot of money, but your bill is much smaller than mine is! Trade you? ;-)

Kristine said...

The trust and joy you have in God shines through on this blog and is inspiring.

(I also wanted to send you an invite to my blog since I know you read it and I made it "private" for the moment, but couldn't find your email address anywhere. If you want you can email me at autumnrains_blog at yahoo.com)

Hilary said...

Jill,
You are just as sweet as I imagined you would be..Yes our named is pronouced just like you thought...I tease the kids and tell them to get happy like clams all the time which drives my 6 year old crazy..clams don't get happy she says...hang in there!! We had 3 miscarrages before we were blessed with Lanta and August so I know how it feels to want a baby so badly that your heart feels like it is going to burst!!! just know that I am keeping you guys in my prayers..you WILL be blessed.....have a great weekend

Polly Gamwich said...

I too hope God will bring you his miracle this cycle. I wish I had as much faith. I just feel beatin down - the enemy is good at his job.

The Patterson's said...

So glad to hear what's going on. That stinks - having to sign the papers every time! You're right there were a bunch there. Good luck, and I'll be praying!!

Portia P said...

Alex's message brought tears to my eyes - it was so sweet.

G-d answered my prayers and i'll be praying for you and that he remembers you when the time comes.

Those meds are horrible and do such awful things to your mind but it will be so worth it.

xx

Allison said...

3 times was a charm for us and I will pray the same is true for you! Many hugs, Allison

Paula said...

I'll pray for you. I hope this next cycle brings you a baby!

Cheryl said...

Jill, I am praying for you and this IVF cycle. I read today that IVF results in pregnancy 1 out of every 3 times. So, you are due for a positive experience! Hang in there girl!

MiMi said...

Jill,

Just want you to know that I am praying for you and Alex and I am believing with you for a miracle! I know that all the meds, etc. are hard on you emotionally, physically (and financially), but the end result is going to be so worth it! I'm like you--I get excited just thinking about it!

I look forward to the day when God blesses you exceeding abundantly above all that you could ask or think! I am waiting for the same thing for my precious Faith and Chad!

God definitely remembers Alex and Jill Averitt and I believe He is going to do a mighty work in your lives!

Love you, sweet friend,
Emilie